I can’t blame anyone. Obviously its not my professor’s fault.
I failed my subject because of my tardiness and laziness.
Its been a long time since i get depressed over education-related matter. DAMN it!
Oh please.. I need to get over it soon. :(
“I’m afraid of commiting myself,” she thought to herself. She wanted to follow all possible paths and so ended up following none. Even in that most important area of her life, love, she had failed to commit herself. After her first romantic disappointment, she had never again given herself entirely. She feared pain, loss and separation. These things were inevitable on the path to love, and the only way of according them was by deciding NOT TO TAKE THE PATH OR NOT. In order not to suffer, you had to renounce love. It was like pulling out your own eyes not to see the bad things in life.”
—Brida by Paulo Coelho
I found this note in one of my scrapbook during highschool. Its a project but i can say that i really put my heart and thoughts in making it. Okay, its about relationship and such i want to have in the future. =)
FIRST PART.
I’m a really shy girl. LOL. Believe it or not, i really am. I’m always misunderstood as ‘SUPLADA’ because i usually don’t greet people even though i know them. I never talk to people that much unless i’m really close to them or i feel comfortable around them. I don’t make eye contact with people, especially with guys. I’m a bit self-centered.
SECOND PART.
I have problem with guys. I always fall for guys who doesn’t even know me. Or with actors. I’m labeled ‘girl who loves 2D more than 3D guys’ by someone. I’m mistaken as a LESBIAN by my cousins. When they’re asked by my Lola if i ever had a crush, they always answer ‘tomboy naman yan si Ate Jhoie eh’.
Gaaah. I just can’t talk to guys casually. I always stutter. And if i don’t stutter, it only means that i’m at ease and friends with that guy nothing more.
If i’m still making sense, lets continue.
THIRD PART.
If ever i will have a boyfriend, but i really think its so so far from now, i will first talk to him and say this..
“if you’ll become my boyfriend, i’m afraid we can’t be a normal couple coz im weird by nature. I don’t like holding hands and akbay or anything PDA but maybe when we’re alone, i can reconsider. I can be demanding but i cant be possessive so you don’t have to worry. I’m not a nagger. I may sulk when i’m neglected.
I became your girlfriend because i’m obviously in love with you, no more other reasons. If you happen to be just playing with me, i can be very mean ya know? LAST, if you fall out of love from me or if you found another girl that you love, i need you to tell me straight to the face, no need to lie.. madali akong kausap, kung ayaw mo na ano pang magagawa natin diba?”
That’s all. SO I REALLY THINK I MAY NOT GET A BOYFRIEND AT ALL. :)
(via theluckiestmanalive)
Empty hallway of JMB. :)
My.. My.. I will surely miss this.
Di makarecover sa kanta! xD
